The mom-thing didn’t come naturally for me, it was challenging – except for the unconditional and unfailing love which I felt. I wanted to hold him all the time, but as he got bigger I noticed that he didn’t enjoy cuddling or being held. He was ok on my hip, but didn’t want to be cuddled. Why? Maybe because of caesarean birth or not breastfeeding? A bonding issue between mom and baby? All these questions raced through my mind…
As a toddler he didn’t respond to us when we called him, he didn’t point at objects like the other kids, had terrible temper tantrums and a speech delay.
I was 5 months pregnant with my second child when we got the diagnosis - Autism with ADHD. I grieved. I did not cry – I had to be strong for my devastated husband. My heart was broken. What did I do wrong?!
In the weeks and months that followed I learned to be a proud autism mommy. Louwtjie is still the same boy he has always been, I just needed to reframe the way I look at him. I am surrounded by a wonderful supportive family, friends and excellent educational intervention - together we are connecting my boy to the world! And after all, I believe that God has got a plan for us!
Over the next few articles, I will be sharing our journey with you. I trust that by sharing our experience, more parents will realize that having a special needs child is not a death sentence, but rather the beginning of an unknown, yet very inspiring road ahead.
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